Can you provide some support & inspiration?

I'm currently living with my mom, step dad, grandmother, and son. I was forced into moving due to a serious medical problem. I can no longer work, and daily tasks seem overwhelming. For the past 2 years I've completely disconnected myself for the entire world and all of my friends. I never could have imagined I would be in this position 5 years ago. I was a successful college student; I had a great job, an incredible son. I felt as if I could do anything, and the world was at my fingertips. I often wonder how I became this anti social, depressed and hopeless woman with no future. The truth is I don't know. I still hold tight to dreams, as they might be the last things I have. Deep down in my soul lives another person fighting to be set free, but my earthly body has it locked up tight with unbreakable chains. I am thankful for a family that provides a roof over my head, and puts food on the table. However, my selfishness desires demand more than the bare essentials for survival.